Hello, everyone! I know it’s been a while since I wrote anything on here. Needless to say, 2016 has been pretty rough for me and I don’t think it’s letting up even as the year slowly comes to a close. Here’s a bit of writing to compensate a little bit for it. (Won’t even develop a proper plot since I’m at work. ^^;;)
Here’s the Reddit link for my writing prompt for today!
“Just give in,” she said. “Things aren’t getting any better, so why even hope for it.”
She was very insistent, as she always had been. For the longest time I was able to ignore her, overlook her snarky remarks or eye-rolls of disapproval as I tried to trudge my way through work- and in life in general. I doubt she’s ever realize how much work, how much time and effort I put into it. But I guess she doesn’t see that. All she sees is whatever trouble I end up getting myself into. It sickens me.
But he says otherwise. “You can do it,” he likes to tell me. “You can do many things. What you can do now, there’s more to it.” He is supportive. He likes to encourage. Sometimes he says it so often that I believe it; and for a moment, I believe in myself. I don’t tell him about how I’m doing, how I’m feeling, what I want to do next… but he knows. He’s just there, quietly waiting and watching.
They always have conversations with me. Nobody really ever sees them except me, and I know they’re there.
I don’t think I’ve ever been more scared or apprehensive or worried in my life.
With the time I have on my hands, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about.. many things. Sometimes the thoughts are mundane – like what should I do with my hair today (the answer is almost always just ‘tie it all up in a bun and get it over with’), other times the thoughts are somewhat existential – like why the hell am I still trying to figure out my life when a lot of my peers already have theirs together. I don’t know why I’m struggling so hard to find what I want and where I fit in. It’s really difficult for me to even consider thinking about my future when my present’s still so messed up.
For a while now (I don’t remember how long it’s been, I think it’s been many months), I feel as if I don’t have any motivation or drive to do anything. I feel so uninspired. I feel, to put it generally. tired. Tired of life, I think. Tired of living? Maybe it’s early onset depression or something. I don’t really know. Depression isn’t something to be taken lightly, but I’m not dismissing it because I really feel as if there’s a dark cloud looming over me. Something like that.
I mean I know I like makeup, and writing about makeup. But my writing isn’t really to the point that I can really make a living out of it yet, do you know what I mean? I’ve always written for myself and I’ve always written about the things that I like, but I really don’t think my awkwardly informal writing can really do much.
Hello, friends! 🙂 Yesterday marked the end of my Lipsticks of the Week series (otherwise known as March Madness to me, haha). I’m really happy and relieved that I’ve finished my very first series on my blog; it’s the first time I’ve really done anything like this!
Let’s look back at the lipsticks from 22-23 March, because I only went to work on those days that week. It was the Holy Week celebration here in the Philippines, and I was off work from Maundy Thursday to Easter Sunday – I figured it was only natural to not wear makeup on those holidays, mainly because I felt it would be respectful to the actual reason for Holy Week.
TUESDAY – 22 March
Aha, a photo wherein you can see my whole face! This was Colourpop’s Ultra Matte Lip in Clueless – a pretty mauve-pink that somehow brightens up my face. And for good measure – I had to work a morning shift that day, which my evening/closing shift body clock totally hates! Needless to say, I was so, so sleepy.. but Clueless makes me look less tired, I think. And me, not love this lip colour? AS IF!
WEDNESDAY – 23 March
NYX Butter Gloss in Peach Cobbler was actually the first one I purchased from the Butter Gloss line – it was the only one available when I visited the NYX Cosmetics store in SM City Cebu, while on a solo trip there. It looks intimidating, a bright orange straight out of the tube; but once slicked onto the lips it’s actually a pretty coral. I love that colour is buildable, and lips never feel parched. A word of caution – don’t slather on too many layers as it’ll end up quite tacky! But nevertheless, the Butter Glosses are really in a league of their own; at least to me!
Apologies for not posting last week’s Lipsticks of the Week post – mainly because I only wore lipstick on Tuesday and Wednesday. I took the rest of the week off because it was Holy Week, which also called for me catching up on sleep, catching up with family and friends, and basically just taking a break.. from life. Hahaha!
I’ll be extending the series to the first few days of April, so next week’s post will have the previous Tuesday and Wednesday lippies, and this whole workweek.
Thank you again for taking time out of your busy lives to visit my little online nook and read my posts! 🙂
Hello friends! This week’s not only been busy, but excruciatingly hot as well! ;A; But then again, looking forward to what lipstick I’ll be wearing for the day helps to beat the summer heat blues.. or.. reds? I don’t know. Haha!
TUESDAY – 15 March
Revlon’s Super Lustrous Lipstick in Foxy Lady was gifted to me by one of my best friends, Alexis, and I’d only gotten to wear this beauty that day! It looks scary and dark in the tube, but it applies on as a beautiful, sheer espresso brown. Though not very pigmented, I like that I can layer it on for more coverage; and yet it manages to sit comfortably on my lips.
WEDNESDAY – 16 March
I wore a favourite – LA Splash’s Smitten Waterproof Liptint Mousse in Nymphadora (now called Nymphaea). I bought it mainly because of the Harry Potter reference (I am a Potterhead, and always will be – hello, Tonks!), and kept using and wearing it because it’s such a pretty nude brown on me. I love it! I’ve actually got a backup tube stashed in my closet. Hahaha! Continue reading “Lipsticks of the Week: 15-20 March 2016”→
Hello, friends! Another week has passed, which means it’s another set of lipsticks to backtrack and to talk about for this recap post. Shall we begin?
TUESDAY – 8 March
I wanted to start the week on a bright note, so I opted for Too Cool For School’s Hot Color Lip Sticker in Hawaiian Flower. The tube itself is tiny – think of a sample lipstick, or one of those play “lipsticks” you’d find in kiddie playsets. Other than that, the colour is vibrant and lasts pretty well even when most of it’s gone; because it leaves a nice stain on the lips. I’d use this for an ombré effect, but then again that look’s never really suited me! It’s a pretty purple-pink colour, perfect for summer. (It already feels like summer; the heat’s getting crazy in Manila!)
WEDNESDAY – 9 March
I wore Colourpop’s Lippie Stix in Tootsi for Wednesday. Before I bought it, I really took time to think about it – I was in the middle of my greige phase, and I wanted an alternative to Colourpop’s Ultra Matte in Trap because I knew liquid lipsticks were prone to making my lips feel really dry. Tootsi was the best alternative, and I don’t regret buying it at all – it’s a pale nude with just a hint of rosiness, so I don’t look washed out or dead when I wear it! I actually bought a second tube, and because sharing is caring I offered it to my friend who bought it from me – at a discounted price, of course! (What are friends for, right? Hee.)
Hello, friends! A week has gone by and I’ve been diligently wearing a different lipstick for each day. My little lipstick calendar has been taped to my mirror, and I’m always excited to see what lip product’s next. I didn’t restrict myself to bullet lipsticks, so there are glosses and liquid lipsticks in the month’s lineup as well.
Without any further ado, here’s the week’s lip colours!
TUESDAY – 1 March
I decided to kick off my work week, and my first Lipsticks of the Week series, with a long-time favourite – NYX’s Soft Matte Lip Cream in Cannes. The SMLCs have been consistently well-received by online reviewers and bloggers, not only for their wide range of shades and lovely formulation, but also because it smells like cake. (Which, you know, is a definite plus for me.) Cannes is the very first SMLC and the very first NYX product I’ve ever purchased, and it’s always going to be part of my little kit – it’s my favourite lip colour for everyday, after all! It’s an MLBB for me, though leaning on the browner side of things. Application’s a dream, colour’s beautiful, and my lips don’t feel bone-dry.
WEDNESDAY – 2 March
Revlon’s ColorBurst Matte Balm in Elusive rang in my Wednesday. It’s actually a lip colour I wore quite often a couple of years ago, in my first semester of law school. In the photo, it looks very similar to my previous lipstick, but this time around it leans more pink. It’s not as much of an MLBB to me as Cannes is, too. What I like about this is that you get a minty sensation when you apply it onto your lips (I like minty things), and your lips feel quite nourished, as it’s more of a pigmented balm formulation as opposed to a true lipstick. Also, Elusive is such a pretty pink that I’ve used it a few times as a cream blush!
Hello, friends! 🙂 This’ll just be short, don’t worry.
Tomorrow is the start of another month, and I’ve got something in store: I’ll be doing Lipsticks of the Week posts! Starting tomorrow, I’ll be wearing a different lipstick each work day and then compile everything in a post on the following Monday (my day off)!
This’ll be kind of a challenge for me since I rarely wear any makeup at work, but I’ll do my very best! I’ve already listed down all the lipsticks I own, and tonight I’ll be making a sort of schedule, just so I don’t have to really think of what to wear for the day. ^^;; I’ll also be documenting it on my Instagram and Snapchat (both are marianner06)!
I hope you’ll all look forward to it, and please don’t hesitate to drop me a line on here or any of my social media accounts! 🙂
I owe it to my readers and friends why I haven’t been dishing out content lately – it’s because I’ve finally found a job It’s in something totally new to me – though something I’ve always wanted to try: the food and beverage industry!
My cousin encouraged me to apply for this new concept shop, basing its menu on sandwiches and sides; with specialty gin & tonics served in the evening. I suppose it’s difficult to really explain it without spilling the beans, but I’ll save it for when we have our grand opening! (We’re currently in a “super soft” opening as of Wednesday!)
To make it short, I’m one of the front-of-house staff for the shop. Because the place is quite smaller than conventional restaurants and bars, the position calls for several skill sets: so I’m not just a waitstaff and cashier, I’m also a barkeep, and a sundae maker! It might sound like menial work, but everything’s interesting to me. I don’t really drink anything more than beer or alcoholic mixers, so it’s nice to learn more about gin and tonics. (We had a training day dedicated to tasting different gins.. and needless to say, I got dizzy–) It’s also nice to learn about different sandwiches and sides. And it’s nice to learn, generally!
I’ll be working on a 4pm-1am shift, which means I will most likely be posting content at unholy hours (late at night, not early in the morning hahaha). I’ll try to squeeze in some product shoots (with matching selcas, because you know me–) around midday so the lighting will still be decent.
I hope you bear with me! And I’ll be sure to make an entry about the shop when we open!
Thank you for reading, and I hope you have a lovely day. xx